.Tuesday, June 29, 2010 ' 10:36 PM Y
I am stress now.. If only i could be what i always wanted in life..
I am stress with what is happening and what will happen in the future. I will not tell everything here. Its good that i wrote them in my new love. If my new love could talk and gives me suggestion, isnt it great?
I dont know how to actually express it here... So many things in mind. ;,( haiz...
Who is thr best person that could listen and feel me?
.Monday, June 28, 2010 ' 8:59 PM Y
hello.
suddenly i get irritated by sumone that keeps on saying things over and over again.
well. thats not important. :D
well, in two weeks time me and omar will be gg for a flat selection. im pretty happy. very very very happy! the next thing after wedding is to save monies for our newly homey. :D yay! excited to the max!
i cant wait to design that home with what ive learn. hhaha. cant wait for the result! haha.
but lagi lama lah! eh im sooo out of topic lah seh! i dunnoe what to blog! like seriously my mind is sooo blank. and i cant activate it.
guess my mind nak sleep kot?!
bye dear! jgn marah2 okay. at least i blog! seriously tkde story seh! tk kan i nak buat cite kan?! bohoo!
.Tuesday, June 22, 2010 ' 10:29 PM Y
Mr love, come home soon!
.Sunday, June 20, 2010 ' 6:40 PM Y
"Abg... Yest was fun. I love the way u hold back ur "miss" towards me. Hugging me titely at e carpark just makes me feel so fortunate to have u with me abg. I cant hold my tears but to cry each time i think of u, trying very hard to achieve the happiness for our future. U know what abg, ure the best man! holding on to my hands, running from trafic light to traffic light yest just makes my day. Whistling and hugging each other while walking, just makes my day too! And, yest infront of the door u stood still looking at every single thing i do i know it hurts! So sorrie.. Emotional runs wild. But hey! Of cus i wont let u go of without a smile on ur face. Thank u so much for the wonderful day yest! Yes i enjoyed it.. :)) thank u thank u thank u! Muack! Happy 93rd monthsary and a year for our engagement abg! Promise me we will always be together no matter what happens. I'll promise u, u will get More excitement in the future with me!"
i didnt lie to whatever i said. Its true. U did a great job yest!
If only arwah abah is here to celebrate this father's day here with us...
Al fatehah.
.Tuesday, June 15, 2010 ' 11:33 PM Y
:''''(
Im not lying but i am crying.
. ' 11:13 PM Y
Kickboxing is getting fast. All the moves is fast! I cant catch it. I cant even concentrate on it and memories it. Haha..
Tsk tsk tsk.
My back start to ache. Ouch.
My comp is organising a trip to desaru... Im sooo excited!!! Cannot wait!! Sekali tak jadi ehk! Haha!
On the last week of july i will be leaving sg... I guess so lah if its confirm... Will be gg to genting... Excited once again...
Klah. Im so shagged. Wanna sleep...
.Sunday, June 13, 2010 ' 3:27 AM Y
I know its not u who replied the text.
Im sick of this!!
Argh!
.Friday, June 11, 2010 ' 10:23 PM Y
I wish i was strong to face this. I wish...
I knoe this is a challenge for me to go thru tis. But why is it too tough for me?
:'(
god, u will always b the one to understand me more than anyone in this world.
Bby, i hope ure doing fine.
:'''(
.Thursday, June 10, 2010 ' 10:56 PM Y
Jus got back from my grandpa hse.. Im so shagged. Havent been sleeping peacefully. Im back to werk. Many many things to do! Haiz. Been handling no fix project. Like whatever! Im so tired to talk about werk.
Grrrr.....
I just wanna share sumthing with all of u. No offence. I started to feel that sumtimes pple are just blinded by their ego and emotional. I sumtime wonder why pple would changed after they get to know sumone for a long time. I got no answer to it.. Im still lost. But isnt it supposed to be like when u got so close and maybe u love that person u wouldnt mind share everything with him or her. My answer may be wrong and may be right to others... Im still confused abt this.
Life isnt everything that we dreamt of. We can dream of having a good companion with everyone that we love, but we should also know that not all pple will have the same dream as theirs. So, if u dun have a same dream to maybe strive for sumthing in life, why would u stick ursf to that person? Why? Why? Why?
I have no answer to that still. I am so confused with mysf. I know whether shld i follow my instinct. Haiz. And anothet thing. Would u ever compare your life now and the past that u go thru?? And brag abt it? I think we shld at least think and said, "someone have been helping me in the past and why must i say all the good things that i have now?? I should say that person was the one that help me alot in the past" i dun understand why pple tend to change when their life was at a higher state now. I seriously dunnoe.
All i can do is to keep mysf think and think throughout thr day. Without realising that ive laid back on my werk. Oh dear..
Ive read my friends fb and her friends comment make me realise that, when someone starts to change in ur life, that is not a good sign. Isnt it loving someone is all abt u and ur partner. Whereby u enjoy every single sec in ur life? Saying it all out is hard rather thab being thru it. I totally agreed with tat. It makes me wiser in choosing sumone for me to shower with all my love and care, every single thing.
I got it now. It makes me wiser.
Alhamdulilah. Kau tunjuk aku jalan yg benar dan cahaya yg terang untuk menbimbingi ku...
.Tuesday, June 08, 2010 ' 4:38 PM Y
No body will expect the person tat we care and love would leave us behind.... I was crying on the train having to know that my grandad past away this morning... I didnt expect it to happen. This is my 2nd time to get this type of news... Although im not that close to my grandpa, of cus the sad feeling i will still be in me... All i have now is my grandma.. Bad news, she will have to be in indonesia as she is not a p.r here is sg... Haiz...
I look at my grandpa and see the calmness at his face.. I cried each time i saw his face... I couldNt bear to lose sumone that i love again. Its so sad. Looking at everybody's face just make me realise that no matter how far we are to each other, the feeling of losing sumone is sooo great..
I knoe god loves him more than anyone here...
Ya Allah, maafkan lah atuk aku.. Letak kan lah dia di tempat2 org yg beriman... Jauh kan lah dia dari api neraka... Amin..
I love u grandpa.. ;'(
Al fatihah.
.Monday, June 07, 2010 ' 10:35 PM Y
Ive been trying to upload pic thru iphone but i guess it cant.. Well ive been forgeting to update for the past few daes. Guess im currently stuck or better werd will be into movies lately.. Thats the only way for me to keep mysf occupied.. Since my dear fiance is v v v busy, thats the reason why ive been watching movies like nobody business. Guess that will be the main reason for him to not letting me to feel bored everytime he get his mind and body at werk...
Last sat was spent wisely on time.. He drive me to i guess seletar reservoir i dunnoe for what but i guess to spent the quality time together for sure... ;) beside taking pictures... And oh yah watch pple fish but like takde ikan! Haha!
Fish mahanttan was cancelled! Since he had LUNCH at home! Meet up with nora on sat. Quick catchup while having lunch at mc like again???!!! Haha! Luckily it was cheaper due to lunch time...
Ok this one is for u dear,
I was excited like hell for this 19th n 20th. I hope thats sumthing i could look forward on these date. I cNt wait!
Ive been hoping for a holiday can? I need it!
Argh!
;(
.Friday, June 04, 2010 ' 8:41 PM Y
Hi!
Its friday and im stuck at home watching tv! Cool or what? Fiance is busy lah keje, keje, keje... Tell u kadang he dun even have 5 min to call me / check on me. Sad kan?! I know! Haha!
Nora is so crazy to msg me at this time (20:45) and guess apa?! She ask me dduk jalan kayu makan prata with her! If only i had a kenderaan, i will say yes without hesistation. Haha! But too sad im werking tomorrow morning...! Kau bleh lah ddk kat sana makan dg contactor kau maybe??? Haha....
Haiz. Im so bored! Tahu fiance aku mesti marah aku ckp gini. But its normal pe! Nothing wrg if i say this. I tot of watching movie thru iphone but i guess ali setan nya show is interesting. Haha! Oh btw i cant wait for tomorrow! I hope tomorrow gg to be a great date for me and omar! Pls pls pls better be!
See you tomolo darling!
Good nite! Happy werking!
.Wednesday, June 02, 2010 ' 4:30 PM Y
My hands are shaking like nobody business. I dunnoe why! I cant even hold a plate. It drop on my sink. Luckily its on the sink. If it fall on e floor, thats it. I am still shaking while typing this. I cabt walk straight. Everything change. Im still having up n down fever. Same for my running nose. Coughing is still stuck on me.
I dunnoe whether tomolo is good day to start werk. Haiz.. I feel like i dun have energy. Argh! I got to be at werk tomolo. Argh!
