.Tuesday, November 10, 2009 ' 8:35 PM Y
well, lately ive been depressed i guess. ive been crying almost every single night. tak percaya... up to you lah. LOL.
ive been wondering tau why am i putting mysf in this situation thinking so hard for it while pple just macam tk peduli. u get wat i mean. haiz, its been years baru now i want to make this clear for mysf. lol. tk terlambat kan??
hmm....
so later part u will see ALL my photos yg i smile very the wide.com. i dun want to sedih2 everynow and then (which i hope i can maintain it). i would just go with watever ALLAH had decide for me. i noe that he knows me better than anybody in this wide world. kan kan kan.
u know, every single day at werk i will be listening to music. music is the one that makes me think wide. better than nothing. each time i hear what the singer want to elaborate, makes me think. think and think and think, now, im like this. deciding to change for the future. best kan. music just makes me happy.
u knoe, last week was a hard week for me. im down with many issues in my life. i hold my tears and tried very hard not to cry at werk. its hard for we (gurls) to do it. at times, when u just cant hold it, it would just drop w/o u knowing it. its hard. i just hope one day, man would understand why we (ladies) cant control our emotions. that marks we are much much sensitive than them. right?
that is where this book came about. men is from mars and women is from venes. (whatever lah the title) ive been wanting to buy that book, been ages lah. cheh! (HINT!)
sometimes eh, when we think too much of things, we would just get diggy kan. takpe, take a deep deep breathe and SMILE very wide. VERY VERY VERY VERY WIDE. heh. then close your eyes and smile again. continue smiling. tu kan sedekah. hahaha.
anyways, im tired of smiling....
btw, ive been hearing this song, from kerispatih. old song, but it contains alot of things in it.
Jangan lagi kau sesali keputusanku
Ku tak ingin kau semakin kan terluka
Tak ingin ku paksakan cinta ini
Meski tiada sanggup untuk kau terima
Aku memang manusia paling berdosa
Khianati rasa demi keinginan semu
Lebih baik jangan mencintaiku aku dan semua hatiku
Karena takkan pernah kau temui, cinta sejati
[Reff:]
Berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini
Dan jangan kau tangisi lagi
Sekalipun aku takkan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma
Sebab rasa ku tlah mati untuk menyadarinya
Semoga saja kan kau dapati
Hati yg tulus mencintaimu
Tapi bukan aku
[Repeat reff]
ahhhh..... feeling kan.... i know. jgn sedih/nangis tau teman2 ku. infact releks. mak gue kata, we have to make an effort to undastand others.
oklah.... lets sambung dgr lagu. makes me wanna dance lah pulak kan. mesti lah lagu rnb. tak kan jiwang gini kan. paham sume?
LOL.
klah. nite!
