.Wednesday, October 01, 2008 ' 11:28 PM Y
i am so sad cus raya is here. and one month left for everything. do u knoe how stressful my life is every single day. EVERY SINGLE MINUTE. everytime when it come to decision, i feel soo hard to make decision. so hard that i just feel likee........ arghhhhhhhh........everyone is just too shameful to ________ me. i knoe it. you dont have to lie! if youre that sincere to me, why are you acting that way?! why? any idea?! what the reason behind alll those thing? what?! every single thing that u do, i have to tolerate! i have to. what to point of confronting u every single day? whats the POINT?! i dun see it! every year is like that. u are just not ready to ________ to me. there will always be a reason why u dun want to __________________________________. i noe u fake all those reasons. i noe. ouh my GOD! i cant take it anymore! SERIOUSLY! i wan you to understand how hard u are treating me and how bad it is. youre hurting me not only me, but everythng! I AM SO SCARED TO MAKE DECISION. DECISION FOR MY FUTURE. I AM SCARED.if i am yours, hold my hand, walk through it with me. show me u really want it and u mean it. not just leave me here every year when it comes to this month. I FEEL ABANDONED!
