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.Saturday, September 27, 2008 ' 12:00 AM Y

do u now that i was stuck for traffic jam at bke exiting pie for 1 hour plus! my god! my leg is like shaking and i really need to sit. haiyoo..... dunnoe why it take sooo long... i wanna complain. next week maybe. HAHAA

ok. after sch i get back then i went out again to wlds to take my fon. after that i hang ard that area. i bought some food for mysf to buke. at 630, mum called and ask me to cook for her. i was slping. HAHA. sungguh penat. tired.

the only thing that i could think is nasi goreng. fried rice. wow! to my suprise, i can cook for like less then 20 min. achievement tuu... power ahh... boleh bukak kedai. can open restaurant. HAHA.

now come the sad news. i was eating and mum said that my uncle is in the hosp. ICU. i was panic. in my mind i was thinking abt the dream that iwan dreamt of. ya Allah, sembuhkan lah pakcik ku ini. another sad news, the doc say that he can only live for 3 to 7 days. i wanted to cry but i hold it.. my god!! pls pls pls save him.

yours truly, hidayah.♥

.Friday, September 26, 2008 ' 5:33 AM Y

ok i enjoy every second i spent with my besties and loves ones. i do. i feel i am like release from everything. every single thing that is playing on my mind. there are who i can depend on. i loves them!

tuesday, we had shesaing. cool rite! my first tyme shesaing. HAHA. will they teach me how to make the smoke come out from the nose. HAHA. that part i dunnoe wheather should i say they teach me good stuff or bad. AHAHA. but overall they are good people to hang with okies!

the next day, wednesday, the bf didnt go to werk. HAHA he is sooo lazy! and end up he wake up at 2 pm. then we head to causeway point to repair the fon. but the queue it pretty long so forget it. when over to his place and later on we went to lepaks with his friends. HAHA

his friends is another good company to hang with. so if u got stress up with sumthing, pls do call any of ur frens to keep u accompany. they will for sure. only good friends will do that. :)

okok basicaaly yest after sch nora follow me to wlds. to repair the fon. and today i will be taking the phone back. yeah!

ok lah. BYE!

yours truly, hidayah.♥

.Wednesday, September 24, 2008 ' 5:36 AM Y

will update once i get picture frm sarah!

yours truly, hidayah.♥

.Monday, September 22, 2008 ' 11:02 PM Y

yest i went to accompany the bf to vivo for a job career. we re like rushing there. cus nak keja kan masa nak buka kat rumah dgn mak. in the end. mak da makan. so left the both of us jer.. suke lah bf aku dpt makan ketam. :)

ok for ur info, bukan job career. but like some private sch gitu. gitu2 lah.. i also not that sure.

ok forget abt the past. its tyme to start a new. a brand new.

today i ask alwi to buke with me. nasib lah dia sudi. sarah pulak busy buat kuih... sue, kat hosp. si nora.... hmmm...... TIDO! geram kan. i knoe.

so alwi and me had our meal at banquet at wlds. nasib lah kau teman aku wee.. kalau tk nangis lagik aku. u noe i noe. its the environment lah mungkin. ada org ckp emo, tapi pada aku, aku bukan nak jadi emo ker ape uh... its just wat i am facing and why am i facing it. tu jerr...

i need pple to pamper me like a doll. but to just at least show lah sikit concern. sumtime i feel like talking alone. org tk layan pun ada. mungkin ada yg dah penat nak dgr story aku pun ada. HAIZ. nie lah kehidupan setiap manusia. lain org, lain cara.

ada pulak mungkin rasa aku membeban kan mereka. tapi dalam segi ape ehh?? bingung ahh gini. ape tah yg drg igt... nak kata takde otak, ada. susah kan. argh... skg nie timbul lagik satu masalah. masalah yg aku rasa akan berahkir dgn sekelip mata. dgn senafas kata dari mulut. selepas itu baru lah hidup aku akan jadi tenang agaknya. insyaAllah.

kdg2 tu aku rasa macam dibuat pakai pun ada. knp ehh?? perasaan aku yg berkata demikian. dan aku dpt merasa kan nya. dah la. i feel malas pulak nak keep on talking abt this. biar ALLAH jer yg menentukan sampai mana ini akan berhenti.

(sorry if in malay. i think if in malay like more feel)

klah. bye.

yours truly, hidayah.♥

. ' 1:17 AM Y

do u wanna knoe wat is missing in my life? HAPPINESS. yes thats it. that the thing that till now i am still finding. no one can ever find an answer why i am saying this. i just feel like saying it. i am like lost somewer and i feel like being push to do thing that i dont wish to do. i need someone that could make me feel free from every single thing. i noe i couldnt be begging any one to do it. but at least make me feel like i am appreciated.

thats more thing that i have been keeping a secret. i dun wish to tell cus i am too shy to faced it mysf. and i knoe i fake all those smiles, laugh and stuff. cus i just wanna be like u guys. feel free from something for once..

but i knoe i was wrg for doing it. i am wrong. for the mean time. i know nothing or anyone could make me feel satisfied. i admit it. i do. i am so sorry. i am bad. i am trying to solve all this. i am.

insyaAllah.

yours truly, hidayah.♥

.Saturday, September 20, 2008 ' 11:31 PM Y

i follow this makcik to giant today. and look at the plastic bag. haha. it is like half of her height. i cannot tahan but to laugh at her! HAHAHA....

ashik tk sabar jer dia nie. nak marah2 jer... ah bodoh. bodoh. bodoh. HAHHAA inside joke.

okok. dah nak sampai rumah nie. last snap. HAHA.

today after kuar dgn sue, i went to geylang dgn parents. pehhh lah ramai org! tk tahan aku.. jab jab. nak buat annoucement.

"TOLONG LAH WAHAI BUDAK2 YG TK BELI PAPE KAT GEYLANG TU, TOLONG JGN TURUN GEYLANG BUAT MEYEMAK! DAH GITU TKPE. DIRI KAT TGH2 JALAN MCM NOBODY BUSINESS! HMMPH! GERAM AKU DIBUATNYE! SO AMCM? ADA FAHAM? NIE AKU BAGI LAST WARNING TAU!"

klah. nak tido bye!

yours truly, hidayah.♥

.Friday, September 19, 2008 ' 1:04 AM Y

i found this at alwi's blog. and i find it very cute. HAHHA. sarah. i am pretty happy tat theres sumone that make you feel really appreciated. okok. update ur blog. i wanna read more about u and him.

sorry i post it here. but cute lei! HAHA!

yours truly, hidayah.♥

. ' 1:04 AM Y

i am feeling very sleepy. thank god assessment is finally over. and i can finally breathe in and out peacefully. can even sleep peacefully. but then hor, i was thinking, why the hell are they giving us hoiday wer we need to do werk. haiz. i just dun get it lah!!!

arghh.. i am very happy today as it mark our 6 years anniversary. okok. i wanna fo more friendstering then bed tyme. BYE!

wonderful date again? sunday.

yours truly, hidayah.♥

. ' 1:04 AM Y

i went out with my bf today. i accompany him to a job interview then we had our beautiful date. :))

while waiting for buke, look, he entertain himself + me.

i knoe how tired he is. yet he didnt dissapoint me.

andddddd waitttttttttttttttt.

HHAHAHA.

HAPPY 6 YEARS ANNIVERSARY DEAR.

LIFE IS SO WONDERFUL WITH YOU BY MY SIDE. NO WERD CAN EVER DESCRIBE HOW GRATEFUL I AM TO YOU. TUHAN MENEMUIKAN KITE DAN SAMPAI SKG LAH KITE BERSAMA. I JUST NAK YOU TAHU HOW NICE MY LIFE IS TO BE WITH YOU. TAK KIRE LAH A SECOND OR TWO. YOU ARE SOMEONE THAT KIPS ME GOING WHEN IM IN A HARD/DIFFICULT STAGE. YOU WERE THERE TO ASK ME EVERYTHING. WITHOUT FAIL. AT TIME WHEN YOU'RE BUSY, I WAS THERE TOO TO REMIND YOU EVERY SINGLE THING.

I REMEMBER THIS WHEN URE SICK, YOU STILL COME DOWN TO MEET ME. I WAS SO TOUCHED. REALLY. NOTHING CAN EVER DESCRIBE HOW THOUGHTFUL U ARE TO ME DEAR. YOU TRAVELLED FROM TAMPINES ALL THE WAY TO BUKIT BATOK FOR THIS 6 YEARS, MY GOD, DAH BRAPE RIBU DUIT MINYAK U TU ABIS KAT I?? HAHA. OR SHOULD I SAY JUTA? HAHA. BELUM MASUK DUIT MAKAN YG SELALU U BELANJE I. HAHA. SUNGGUH GENTLEMAN. IM TOUCHED AGAIN.

SEE, ALL THIS SMALL THINGS THAT U DO FOR ME, I WILL NEVER FORGET. INFACT I SAVE IT IN MY MIND. FOREVER AND EVER. I PROMISE. I STILL REMEMBER ALL THOSE DIARY THAT WITHOUT FAIL I WOULD UPDATE. HOW I DESCRIBE HOW MUCH I MISS YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY. ALL THOSE ANNIVERSARY CELEBRATION THAT WE HAD I HOPE U DUN PUT IT ASIDE, BUT PUT IT IN YOUR MIND.

BY NOW, MY LOVE FOR YOU IS FULLY CHARGED. AND THIS LOVE BATTERY WILL NEVER BE EMPTY OR LOW. I PROMISED!

I PROMISE TO LOVE YOU MORE IN YEARS/DAYS/MONTHS/SECONDS TO COME. HOPEFULLY THIS RELATIONSHIP DONT HAVE ITS END. INSYAALLAH. AMIN.

I LOVES YOU.

yours truly, hidayah.♥

.Tuesday, September 16, 2008 ' 5:22 AM Y

i want to tell u alot of thing but time yg tk menentukan. insyaAllah soon.

astagfirullah. astagfirullah. astagfirullah.

ya Allah, beri lah aku kekuatan sekali lagi untuk menempuh sekali dugaan yg kau beri. tunjuk kan lah pada aku segala niat jahat orang disekeliling ku ya Allah.

sesungguhnya, aku memohon pada mu buat kali ini.

amin.

yours truly, hidayah.♥

. ' 2:43 AM Y

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