.Friday, January 05, 2007 ' 12:00 AM Y
now its getting worst! i had enuf shit! haiz. i can think properly. life is realli unfair to me. why do pple want to hate me for wat i decide? they asked me, so i replied. issit wrg? sumtimes i just hate to make new fren. i haf to stat all over again. sumtimes i wonder why pple just dun think like how i think. isnt it gd if all human being think the same way? :(
i just dun want pple to think that im not being faithful to my dearest ones. but sumtimes, feeling do change too. get wat i mean? if not, its okies. haiz. why do i haf to land in this situation? why must god choose me. instead of other person out there?
i hate pple to think the negative side of me. how can i make them think that im not like wat they think? i tried not to think abt this but i cant. alot of q that is in my mind. pple are all blaming me for wat i did. sumtimes i just wanna gif up. :( haiz. wat else shld i do now?
now i gona ****ing get lost from you. nvr in my mind i ever tot that ull change to worst. since the day our friendship begins, i nvr tot that ull be this harsh. u nvr scold me before like wat u did now. but uve change. sumtimes i just wonder why. issit me that change or u, ursf.
change topic now.
yest, didnt went out the whole day. help mum with the cooking. great. i feel so happy staying at home. its been awhile since i last cooked. haha.
just now, went out with su and alwi. im driving again. cool. we went to geylang east central to find my dear. he didnt kol me the whole day and i get so worried. so went there hoping to meet him. and yes there he is. but he's kinda moody today. i dunnoe why. i fought with him. i feel very bad. haiz. he just walked away like that.
su and alwi entertained me the whole day today. they make me smile again. i feel like crying deep in my heart. but i maintain it. we then went to changi airport. we walked ard and haf my meal there. its great. we met howard( i guess). the eye for a guy. i shouted his name. and he turn. arghh.. he looked great! :)
after that we head to tampines. im not feeling that gd actualli and i said to them that i wanna meet my dear awhile. i went under his blk. i called him and tell him that i wanna meet him. but he then refused to meet me. can u feel wat im feeling rite now? its getting too much. bt i stay calm. i hide all my feeling from them.
then we head to jalan dermawan. they wanted to find ghost. theyre crazy! i drove them there. alwi asked me alot of q. haiz. alwi, next tyme asked me that q after we get out from that place can? i felt sumthing fishy. and we smell sumthing scary too. haiz. ouh ya. we went to o.c.h too.
after that they want to go jalan bahar and i said no. its better that we go home now. i begged all our mother's are worried rite now. so i drove back to su's place. then straight home with alwi.
thats all. bye.
i blogged at 12.47am, 5 january 2007. take note pls. :)
