.Sunday, August 13, 2006 ' 1:37 AM Y
here im back.. from desaru.. blogging once again.. haiz.. must be wondering how issit like down there.. i must said the truth, its boring. and i dun reali haf fun down der.. in fact my hubby is having fun down der... i can tell...
im bored there cus, my bf doesnt treat me that well.. like how i expected.. im all alone.. ya alone.. trying to haf conversation with his frens... just to cover up all my feeling.. do u knoe how i feel down der? i did cried. inside the room and at the toilet.. it really hurt me alot. i tried not to cried, but it doesnt werk. (crying again)
dear, if only u could feel how i feel wont it be great? so that u will knoe wat i feel.. 3 days there is like nuthing somehow.. whenever u pass by me, u didnt smile. theres once, u didnt even look at me.. its like as if u dont knoe me.. how could u do that.. u always leave me with a question mark in my mind.. y?? i feel guilty. i admit that.
ive been thinking wat i did wrg.. i did ask u y u did that, its like u were ignoring me.. but y? seeing remy and efah together make me feel really sad.. y cant u be like him?? always with efah... everything he do, he will always wait for her.. but u, wake up in the morning, rush out to living room and u left me alone.. ya.. dont say that u did
nt do that...
ive always expected the happiest moment in our life at desaru, but everything ruin... u make me feel guilty somehow... till now i still haf that feeling.. u were not u when ure there... and one more thing, ure treating me like ure fren down there... am i ur fren? or, are you shy with ur frens cus u haf me??? u offered me to desaru just bcos u want me to accompany efah?? ive been asking this to myself the whole day.. i nid an answer from u... only u haf the answer to my questions...
-im still waiting and wanting to hear from u-
(im still in love with u. even u hurt me that much. my love for u is infinity) -muacks-
nt do that...